MIDLIFE CRISIS (yes this is a song)

Lately I have been feeling very blah. I am not sure what is going on with me. Things I used to care about, I don't anymore. People I used to care about, don't seem worth my time. I am annoyed by things. I just turned 44 and I am not sure about where I am in life and if this is how things are supposed to be. Generally I am a pretty happy person. Lately, I am just not happy. I am reviewing my life, the people in it, my job, and all the things in between to see if or what I can change and make my self happy. I have many good friends who I love. So far I am healthy this year. The warm weather is coming soon, and I can spend my days and evenings in my pool with my kids. (my most favorite place to be next to the beach) Is this my midlife crisis? Faith no more says...... Sense of security Like pockets jingling Midlife crisis Suck ingenuity Down through the family tree Anyone else trying to figure out if this is as happy as life gets until you die? Boy that sounds silly when you read it all typed out. I am trying to figure out if this is as good as it gets. Right now I am not sure. I think it could be better. What to change in order to make that happen, I am not sure. Accept the things you cannot change, change the things I can have the courage to know the difference. Where should I start? That's a really big question. Happy Mother's Day to all the Mom's. You earned a day off! Celebrate.

Christmas Card 2011

Snowflakes Ribbon Christmas Card

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Broken Heart

Today I have a broken heart. My daughter was yelling about having her hair brushed. (only a daily thing around here) She stomped off, told me to leave her alone and then ask that I not go to cheerleading pictures with her. My heart is broken. I am the one she always wants with her. I am her safety blanket. I guess not anymore. Jack was upset when I told him I wasn't going to his game. I can't risk her yelling at me in public. This is her new thing. Yelling at her parents. How embarrassing. She is going to talk to someone and find out why she is feeling so much frustration lately. Can't come soon enough for me. I have been the softball coach, the cheerleading coach, the brownie leader etc. I have volunteered for everything she has wanted to do. I cannot believe that this is the same girl who used to appreciate me. I will never get up at 0500 on my day off and wait in line for hours so that she can meet someone from the Disney Channel. Those days are officially done. I will no longer take her to a concert, or spend hours custom making a t-shirt for her to wear to said concert. Maybe if she doesn't get everything she wants and more, she will appreciate her mother. As mad as I used to get at my mother, I NEVER treated her so poorly. Never.

Christmas Card 2010

Oh What Fun Christmas 5x7 folded card

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Happy Father's Day

Happy Father's Day Dad! I miss you more every day that goes by.

You would be proud of my kids. They are so great. Jack is so much like you it pulls at my heartstrings. The boy has your sense of humor. :)

Happy Father's Day Mr. O. You are missed and loved and thought of often. Losing you was like losing my Dad for a second time. We love you.

Happy Father's Day Tim! You couldn't be a better Dad. Our Dad's would be so proud of you. Jack and McKenna love you so much and love how much time we spend together!

Happy Father's Day to all my friends! I have a great group of friends that are such good fathers.

Tomorrow we will celebrate Tim and both of our fathers. So a day of mixed emotions for all of us.

Happy Mother's Day

Today is the day Good NEWS!

Today is the day that I get the results from my blood test.

Today is the day I find out if the cancer has stayed away for another year.

Today is the day that I find out if I get to make it 6 years cancer free!!!

Wish me luck. It's hard to put a whole year on one day. That's too much pressure for the day to handle. LOL

I will update later. If it's not good news, I will update tomorrow. I will need the one day pity party I have allowed myself. :)

I am a bad daughter. I didn't update TWO days ago. The test results were good. Hello SIX YEARS!!!!!

Having a neck ultrasound just to see what it looks like after 2 surgeries.

GO ME!!!!!

Sorry I didn't update immediately. Or call. Love you Mom. Sorry you worried. :(