Here it comes..........................

I haven't been musical in a little while. I guess I have been too tired. LOL

Here is today's song

You better stop, look around
Here it comes, here it comes, here comes your 19th nervous breakdown. I swear I am headed for one.

Surgery set for May 3rd. It's not twilight. It's not outpatient. It's not 40 minute surgery. It's GENERAL translated INTUBATION It's overnight stay and it's 3-4 hours long. Maybe longer. Since I have had surgery on my neck before, he has to dig thru lots of scar tissue. He doesn't know which gland is bad. So he has to dig around. The more time digging around increases the chances of damaging my nerves, vocal cords and or last 3 remaining parathyroids. If he can't find the bad gland, he is closing me up and will try again in 6 months. How fun does that sound?:
I am not happy :( Everything I thought it would be....it isn't. Hopefully he will find the bad gland and this will be my last next surgery. Everyone who looks at my neck can't even tell I had surgery. Guess that will all change now. :(

So I am trying to stay positive. I AM TIRED. REAL TIRED.

Today I had lidocane sprayed down my nose so the ENT could stick the big 10 inch little tube up my nose and down to see my vocal cords. That was fun. NOT. They look fine he said. It tasted like shit, LOL and made me numb for an hour. Not to mention that I went to my next 3 doctors appointments with snot running down my face. LOL

Had physical and check up at the surgeons office. Then off to anesthesia to discuss the game plan. I requested a private room. I don't like to see strangers when I am not feeling well. :)

SO that's it for now. I am nervous all over again. I hate GENERAL, I thought I could avoid it.

Happy Birthday to me this Friday. :)

Ok so I am stupid

I thought I wasn't nervous about today but I guess I am. I couldn't fall asleep last night, I had straaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaange dreams, and when I saw my clock said 4:50am I jumped out of bed to shut off the alarm before it went off. I tiptoed downstairs and took a shower. Contemplated leaving my hair wet because after reading email til 5:30 I thought I would never be ready in 30 minutes. ROFL. DUH. I thought until 5 minutes ago I had to leave at 0600. I don't. I have to leave at 0700. Damn, there goes an hour of my life I will never get back. LOL.
So I figured I would get back on the computer while my hot rollers cooled. Now what will I do with the next 40 minutes? It's hard to do anything when the whole house including the dog is sleeping. Not the first time I have done this either. Well I guess it's better to be EARLY.
Will update when I get home.

XOXOXOXO
Marikay

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Surgery Set

I will be having surgery on May 3rd. My MRI showed NOTHING. But according to the nurse my numbers are bad enough that surgery is the right thing to do right now.

I am a little nervous. I hope it's a small incision. I was finally comfortable with my old scar not showing at all. Hope I heal by the time the warm weather comes.

I haven't told my boss yet but will talk to him soon about it. I am hoping I am only off a few weeks to heal and then will probably ask for desk duty for a few weeks after that.

I don't want to fight with anyone not being 100%. Although I work in a slow district where my day mostly consists of traffic stops and reports, you never know. The other day I had to fight with a mental and 10 firemen and an off duty guy had to help me get him handcuffed. Once in the back of my car he tried to kick my windows out and when we put him in the paddy wagon, he was banging his head really hard against the metal door. NUT JOB. LOL

I will post again after the MD appts next week and let you all know what the game plan is.

Went to see WICKED last night. AWESOME!!!!

TTFN

Marikay

MRI

Had my MRI on Wednesday. Assuming that I will find out the results on Monday or Tuesday. Surgery is scheduled for May 3rd. The Doctor replaced his nurse. (thank GOD) The MRI sucked. I tried to pretend it was a tanning bed. Sometimes when I lay completely flat I find that it's hard for me to breathe. Don't know if that is a side effect of surgery.

The clinic called me and told me I have the following appointments on the 23rd of April.

0830 ENT. Going to attempt to look at my vocal cords and see if they are functioning properly. Told me they can do it really easily if I don't have a strong gag reflex. ( I DO) The woman said if I do they will spray something in my throat and then stick a little camera down there. Sounds easy enough.

0900 Surgeon. She said check up and physical. I just had one, plus a whole body scan, an MRI a Sestimibi scan and a shitload of bloodwork. I am wondering what else they need to check. LOL

1000 Anesthesia. Last time they made my appointment, I showed up, the Doc came to talk to me and then I went to surgery. I guess I don't mind them being anal about every little detail. This will be radio-guided minimally invasive surgery. The incision should be a few CM. I will not be under general, I will have a twilight sleep and I was jumping for joy because last time the only thing that bothered me was my throat from being intubated. HOORAY!!!!!

Will update when I have something to add. :)

Happy Easter everyone. I am working, hopefully no one will be fighting with their families. I hate to arrest people on a HOLIDAY. LOL